My entire life I’ve been so afraid. Feeling an outcast, a weirdo, a misfit. I didn’t feel like I belonged anywhere.
I didn’t feel of this world. I didn’t understand people, the lives they are living and why the world is as it is. And I didn’t understand myself. Full of pain, resistance, fear and desperation.
I went through a lot of depression, confusion and suffering, like most people today.
Because of the sorrow I started to search for the meaning of life, for who I am and why I am here in the first place. I’ve traveled around the world, walked the pilgrimage route ‘Camino De Santiago,’ read all the self help books, joined spiritual retreats, studied and learned from great masters and spent lots of time in nature by myself.
All for one reason… to figure out who I am and why am here. It has been a hell of a journey with many ups and downs.
Deep down I knew that something knew.. That I was part of a greater plan. That I was here on purpose and on a mission. I had faith that one day I would remember, that I would understand myself and this world better.
That day is now.. Although in a different way that I thought it would be.
I don’t have the answers and I will never have them, but what has grown over time is the acceptance and love for myself, humanity, this planet and world.
I know that I am perfectly guided every step of the way, that nothing is for nothing and that there is a time and space for everything… for all experiences from sorrow and pain to joy, excitement and love and the great lessons born from these experiences.
If anything, I know that life has one purpose, to learn and grow as a soul and to add and expand the ‘database’ of the collective of the one infinite creator that wanted to know itself.
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I am still afraid sometimes, afraid to show up, to be myself in weirdness and to shine as bright as I possibly can. But the more I learn and get to know my essence, the layers of fear, deception, confusion and anxiety fall away.
What remains is love. Love for existence, the purity of my being and “the script” I have chosen for this lifetime.
I know now that surrender and acceptance comes from trusting the unknown and the unexplainable truth that the heart provides. Life is as meaningless as it is meaningful and there will never come an end to learning, the contrast and the catalysts that provides learning.
I understand now that surrendering to life and trusting its higher plan is what makes life joyful.
All is well and will always be well. Our nature is pure love that takes on many forms no matter how light, dark, tough or smooth our ride is.
I am the creator of my world, in fact I am the one infinite creator, and so are you, for we are ONE. Our job is to remember who we are and to shine as bright as we can. There is nothing wrong with me or you. We are perfect and we are on a wonderfully messy journey that we call life.
Let’s take a moment to acknowledge and to be grateful for our existence, so life can happen through us and for us, as it is meant to be.
Let’s keep on showing up, keep on doing the inner work and I promise I will keep on doing the same right here by your side.
Shine bright my fellow messy human and seeker of truth!
I love you, as much as I love myself.
Ps. Don’t believe a word I say, only trust what rings true for you.
Roeleke
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Through my paintings I attempt to make the invisible visible. To me they are stories, transmissions, books and portals. A gateway to remember, connect and communicate with your higher self.
Be Your Game is a self gamify daily life plan to unstuck yourself by getting to know who you are, to aline with your calling, to embrace the gifts of your traumas, and to live life your terms, according to your own truth.
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